All About Hady

2009-04-24T10:05:00.004+08:00

Harapan...
Apakah itu sebenarnya harapan.....
Harapan yang semua miliki.......
Harapan yang mampu diberi.....
Namun ia harapan kepada impian yang tak pasti.......
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Harapan....Harapan seorang pencinta....
Walau mampu melalui onak dan duri...
Walau dapat tempuhi hutan rimba dalam kegelapan....
Gembira dan tawa......Tiada pasti...
Kerna kekecewaan pada akhir perjalanan mampu membakar diri....
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Harapan....Harapan seorang pencinta.....
Penantian demi penantian tanpa akhirnya........
Kekuatan diri hanya memakan hati....
Tangisan sering membasahi pipi....
Namun apakah harapan akan terus membara......
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Harapan yang kian musnah,tak munkin kembali....
Namun hati pasti pulih,walaupun perlu masa yang lama....
Pencinta terpaksa berputus asa kini,kerna penantian tiada erti lagi....
Harapan,apakah itu harapan....
Harapan pada impian yang tak pasti.....
Harapan yang tak pasti akan kembali..........
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Aku bagai Sang pendusta sentiasa dalam kekeliruan......
Harapan yang pernah diberi dihapuskan diri sendiri.......
Impian bersama dihapuskan oleh kesalahan sendiri......
Kini penyesalan tiada erti,hidup perlu diteruskan.......
Mimpi-mimpi indah bersama dulu tak mungkin kan jadi kenyataan...........
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Semuanya kan berakhir kini....
Tiada janji-janji palsu lagi......
Semua hanya tinggal kenangan......
Yang terbaik kan menanti di akhir jalan ini.....Insyaallah....
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Too many songs i listen to which bring back memories...
Just a lil too many.....
Guess i just sucks big time then....Have always been....

2009-03-08T16:14:00.004+08:00

This weekend seems to be my damn non-busiest weekend...Stayed at home slacking...At most,met my cousin n slack fer a while...Yapz...Nth much..Pretty boring weekend...But yeah...I guess,its more of,im pretty not in the mood to go out,just prefer to be by myself,be alone fer the moment...Need a break fer a moment....Results out last friday,Happy fer those whu did pretty well...Gd luck ppl..Congratz n go all the way fer what u guys aim fer....yeah!!!...as fer me,i wanna settle down fer the moment,take some time to reflect n think over properly watz gonna be my plans....
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Tomorrow gonna be a crucial day...Got my BCLS test,die2 nid to pass this test...My 1 n only step to getting to station....Yes...Fer now,datz my aim...Insyaallah im able to achieve it.....This week realie gonna be a busy week...4 weeks to go b4 POP....I gotta do this...Yeah....
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Its been a year since my grand-dad passed away....I realised i havent been sleeping over at my grandma's hse fer quite some time....But,not now....not in the mean time....Its jsut not the right time...Not that i wanna run away from reality,but,i gotta get myself prepared....Yapz.....aniwae,a few weeks back,we had a kenduri over at my grandma's place...lotsa foods as usual....i packed some foodback to camp...Hahaha....

Fer past few weekends,i tried to meet up with the my best friends....Yeah....Cuz i do know,its been quite long since i got time to meet them fer updates n all....Met Sakinah over at coffee bean,afta window shopping at vivo....found a few choices of the jackets i want...hmmm....Hahaha....then chatted fer quite long...Well...Wasted that syaza cudnt be there...next outing k sis....yeah.....Last weekend wanted to watch Festival Melayu Ada...but b4 i cud watch Zaibaktian's performance,it was gonna rain heavily,so i left wif the lovey dovey couple(syahiran and hajar) fer sheesha .....*kalau korng terbace,betta be proud,aku puji korng ok....*yeah....

Next weekend,gonna meet up wif the YOUTH!!!Been realie so long i met them,slack wif them n all...hopefully tonite will getta met them a while n nxt wk will be BBQ-ing wif them...Insyaallah..I've been hearing recruitments fer dian boys..yeay....realie fun to hear there's more boys...yerpz...n now,even though im feeling down,cheerful n crazy songs is what keeps me cool.....KOPI DANGDUT is the favourite fer now....Woooohooooooo!!!!!

2009-03-01T08:00:00.003+08:00

And so,afta 7 weeks....But truthfully i say...The POP is realie different from army n police....Family n friends are not invited to come...So the spectators was my fellow BP mates,instructors and the PTIs.....But yeah,all of us havebeen waitingfer this day....POP OH!!!!hahaha.....In the morning, we warmed up a lil and went fer a 10 km route march with our backpack on,happily singing our way....We were just enjoying ourself the whole way along the cemetries....Yeah...our route march was along the cemetries...from the chinese cemetries to the malays....Up anddown the hill,that's what make us realie tired....But yerpz...It's still a lot lesser thanarmy...wakakaka......We were made to rush to our Smartest 4 for the POP ceremony.....Evri single person was super smart with their KILAT shirts and boots....aftathat we had a gd lunch b4 rushing to pack our bags n off we go!!!!!At first,we were all looking forward to POP on thurs,cuz rumours was liddat,but....its still on friday...Nehmind....as a result,i missed the post-mortem session...yeah......Ermmm...i dun have any photos with me currently,so yeah.....
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And so,We were posted to ourvocation training....Definitely,i miss those times during the BRT stage...But now,we usualie meet each other coincidentally within the CDA,for others who are posted elsewhere,we'll just wait fer an outing soon...Yerpz.....And so yeah,im posted to the Medical Orderly Course,in which i have a chance to assist the Paramedic in the ambulance...Quite happening....Realie happening afta hearing stories from the instructors, cuz ur able to see what some other people dun getta see...in fact,u gotta handle it....Yapz....1 week gone....Im left wif 5 more weeks to go b4 i passed out from this course...Yeah!!!This time,family and friends are invited if im not wrong for the ceremony...Woooohoooooooo!!!!!!Definitely,this isnt an easy course...but i'll gv it my best....
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Currently,im realie missing Dian Dancers...Not able to commit fer now,cuz i usualie end at nite on the thurs...But then,i realie wanna perform soon....i was shocked this morning wen i wke up,cuz i dreamt abt performing...wakakka.a..sampai termimpi2....hehehe....I miss the people,the training,n now that i've recovered,i cant wait any longer toperform...Hopefully soon....Yapz....
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So yeah,wif my current hectic schedule,there's not realie much i cud do...there's abt 2 test going on evry week,and 2 weekdays going home at nite....Its quite tiring,realie tiring xpecially wenu have to stay awake in theory class,which is like 70% of the day....Woaaah.....realie a challenge to me...ermmmm....well....just gotta endure fer 6 weeks to come,insyaallah........

2009-02-28T10:11:00.029+08:00

It's been abt 2 mnths im enlisted into NS.....Oh well...And yeah!!!Lotsa things to update on!!!

Firstly, gonna talk abt the Dian Dancers Production on the 13th Feb...Yeah...Sadly to say,i din manage to perform at my very best....I was looking forward to it day by day,week by week, and i thought, on the day itself,i'll be able to be at my very best....But oh well...I realised regular practice is crucial wen it comes to a major production like this...Once per week is not enough to get u up there...U nid time to build up ur individual strength and as a grp....Yeah....Things got even worst when my health condition was at my worst on that day....but there's nth much i could do....From a realie minor coughing from the first week of enlistment,and turned into a major coughing problem for 3 weeks consecutively b4 the production,and on the production day itself,i got no voice...Initially during lunch,vomitted after taking porridge...Luckily condition got betta afta a while...Yeah,luckily im able to eat dinner...If not,i wud not have the energy....yerpz......

Manja kan...Hahaha...yeah...Kalau boleh nk suro haikel suapkan....Wakakakaka.....Ermmm...On that day,definitely,i wasnt at the mood of taking photos and all....Being crazy,irritating others like i always used to,i was pretty quiet,resting,worrying fer my performance...It was too fast...Without realising,its jsut a 2 hours b4 the actual thing...Running thru once fer me definitely wasnt enough...xpecially wen my mind is pretty slow on that day....

And yeah....At slightly b4 8 i tink,Dian Dancers Presents NADI........................I feel i was more stable on the first 2 performance...Gunung Payung and Joget Si Paku Geylang....I enjoyed both that performance...Fer the Zapin Gempita,it brought back memories during my SYF 2007,cuz it was the same song...But i din manage to do my very best...yeah..I feel i screw up that performance...Cocked up like mad...But yapz..I still do enjoy myself...I did give my very best even i was not at my peak...Yeah......I enjoyed like mad,shouting, making noises on stage even though i got no more voice...Luckily,tkda yg ter-off tune...hahaha....So yeah!!!!Rock On Dian!!!

So yeah...The Traditional part ended...For the contemporary part,i was supposed to dance fer Kebangkitan NADI,but then,yerpz...I wasnt at the last week of their training where, the choreography and positioning is changed and all....so yah....Good fer me too as i aint confident on that dance..But i love that dance..Its nice!!!wooohooooo!!!!!And the props,mcm RAIDEN!!!And the song..Power!!!rancak,Best!!!And afta the contemporary part,it ended with Alunan Zafin Kini Contemporary Version.......

I have not heard abt the comments cuz MY POP WASNT ON THURS!!!ermmmm....rumours was supposed to be on thurs,but end up its still on friday...So wat to do...i cant attend the Post-Mortem...ermmm...Hopefully,overall comments was gd...yeah....

And so yah....Evrione had fun on that day....Ermmm...And so,its been 2 mnths i've not been going for DIAN's thursday trainings....and now,looking at my schedule...I dun tink im able to commit to Dian fer the moment...Haiz....I miss DIAN!!!!.......Realie miss DIAN!!!!bila lah blh dtg training lagi...hmmmmm...............so,will update more later......

2009-02-01T09:29:00.004+08:00

Bintang

Kan ku abaikan

Segala hasratku

Agar kamu tenang dengan nya

Ku pertaruhkan

Semua ragaku

Demi dirimu bintang

Biarkan ku menggapaimu

Memelukmu

Memanjakanmu

Tidurlah kau di pelukku

Di pelukku

Biar ku tunda

Segala hasratku

Tuk miliki dirimu

Karna semua

Telah tersiratkan

Dirimu kan milikku

Currently,im addicted to this song.....Such a nice song that i'll listen to it every nite...Well...other than it reminds me of sumbody that is...Songs that i listen to usualie have wonderful lyrics...yeah...So meaningful,and compared to drama and movies,it is more real and makes sense....Yerpz....But yah,i always control my emotions not to be carried away wif the songs i listen to as i know,i might end up in tears,wondering....Yeah....Though its 3 weeks to go,i foresee this is the last stretch whereby its gonna be the toughest....Insyaallah,evryting will go smoothly....Amin.....

Aku akui, banyak kekurangan pada diri ini....

Aku akui, ku punya banyak kesilapan.....

Aku akui aku tidaklah sebaik mana....

Namun kata-kata yang pernah ku luahkan semua nyata belaka....

Tidak pernah ku memandangmu serendah begitu....

Ku hanya dapat berharap dikau tidak berubah....

Ku percaya ini hanya suatu permulaan....................

2009-01-31T16:42:00.002+08:00

3 Weeks to POP.......Something im looking frwrd to...Staying in camp wif minimal communication wif friends n all outside,its quite bad...BUt i have to appreciate that what we are facing now is more justified than people who are serving NS last time..There's more welfare n all...So i gotta appreciate it...Weekends has always been something im looking frwrd to at the end of each week...Its been almost the same routines each week.....but i screw up my day today...............................i totalie screw it up.....nxt wk wun be a good week while im in NS i guess...haiz....Hope it wun affect my performance during training tml and wen in camp....but i doubt so......Haiz.........................

2009-01-17T23:36:00.002+08:00

So yeah...This is my 2nd weekend afta my enlistment fer NS...Well...how have it been,its kinda tough at ferst...BUt im picking it up slowly,jsut dat,muscle aches have not recover yet...so its a bit tough xpecially when physical training gets more intensive...Drastic cutting down of smoking makes me sick...Well..din smoke in camp...n so,now im suffering from a bad cough...N its getting worst...haiz...i dun have much appetite to eat...yerpz....Hoepfully nxt wk wudnt be so tough cuz i wanna continue wif trainings,but if its tough,i might not be able to cope since im sick....But yah....insyaallah things will be fine fer me...5 weeks to POP...n then,will get my posting....Woooohooooo....Cant wait fer POP...20th February if im not wrong...Hopefully i will pass all the required test...Insyaallah....Shockingly,im in the Footdrill Comp among the companies...yeah...But its kinda fun i think...learning more abt footdrills...yeah....
So afta 2 weeks,life in NS is mentally tough...1 week without family n all...while in the weekends,u gotta have a gd time management....xpecially wen i have a production to rush for... Yerpz.. I've just read the casting,but ermm...maybe im gonna back up fer some of it...Cant commit that much...n i cant bring my family dwn fer the production...cant bring them down to watch me dance...tix are sold out wen i wanted to order....No luck...totalie no luck.....Kinda dissapointed abt it..realie dissapointed...so yeah,dun have friends or families who come to support me i guess...haiz.......bt nehmind...jsut have to accept this fact n move on....Morale may be down,spirits may be down...but i'll just dance....fer dian's own production at least....yerpz.................

2009-01-09T23:32:00.003+08:00

Well...Finalie, on 6 january 2009,i was enlisted into national service in Civil Defense....yerpz...today is the first day i book out...Just a week,n i already felt a lil difference abt myself...6 weeks mroe to go that is...Proper training will start nxt wk...I noe it wud start as a tough one fer me,cuz i've not been keeping myself fit fer a very long time..hopefully i'll able to keep up,insyaallah...Other than that,the mental stress,mainly from my own self..Too much thinking that built up to it...I guess,im experiencing what any ns guys are facing...Even im not due fer confinement fer 1st 2 weeks,i can already imagine how it's like...Matters of heart had never been simple enough....As much as i want this 6 weeks to end soon,as much as i want to know what will it be by then,i still do fear if its not something i wanted....i still do fear,if im not strong enough to face it...its this fear that seems to be a hindrance..but i do believe,afta this few mnths,its enough to show me some things...its enough t open up my eyes,as i turn more mature in lotsa stuffs....insyaallah....I just hope watever happens,it is fer the best...the very best....Amin....
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I wonder if im able to perform for dian's production.....at least,i do wanna be part of some dance pieces...just hope i got the time to practice...If not,i'll just be a backstage crew...no choice...is this proving to me something.....i aint sure...but the best will always happen...i believe so...insyaallah......
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Maybe.....maybe iwjup........
maybe........uhgom.........
maybe...............iabahiyl.........
Questions questions & questions....................
Answers will be known soon......................

2008-12-27T12:55:00.005+08:00

Without realising,im just 9 days away from my enlistment.....Yerpz...Upon serving the country, i might not be able to be involved actively with Dian Dancers and Almukminin Youth Ambassadors anymore...Im kinda sad that, i had to be inactive now...

Xpecially when Dian Dancers is evolving into a company, acting as an Independent Artiste first...I wish i could still be there to help cikgu and the committee members to build Dian Dancers into a reputable company...Insyaallah...It's gonna be a hectic year fer them nxt year,yet im unable to be actively involved...Yeah...However,this upcoming production will be a stepping stone fer me to learn manage my time well enough...Yerpz...Im realie looking forward to work all out fer this production...Insyaallah evryting will work well....Amin......

Another thing is that,The Almukminin Youth Ambassadors will be looking into growing into a bigger & better group or an organisation shud i say...At this point of time,it will be crucial fer them to work on their system, so that everything will work well in future....Insyaallah...And when nxt year come,it will already be serious matter to them cuz they have to work hard if they wanna achieve what they have aimed for....I just hope i wud have the time to help and assist them...Insyaallah.....

However,i hope this part of the journey in my life will give me a valuable experience....I just hope i'll develop into a better person...At this part of the journey of my life, decision will always be crucial...There's no more hide n seek of my trueself....Whether or not its contradicting, this is a fact which i gotta accept it now...a mosque youth ambassador and a malay dancer...At this point of time,i've decided...but yet,i aint got any strength for things to be the way i want it to be...Im still weak t face it all...But its no joke nemore now...once im in there,things will onlie turn out betta or for the worst...Insyaallah things gonna be ok...things gonna be better....Amin.....

2008-12-20T12:27:00.003+08:00

Been wanting to update fer quite some time but din have the chance to.....Recently, The Almukminin Youth Ambassadors committee along with the Youth Development Officer organised a camp fer the youth ambassadors to Masjid Petempatan Melayu Sembawang....Alhamdulillah, it was definitely a great experience....All of us managed to learn lotsa stuffs, from spiritual training to character building...I felt very much satisfied with the number of participants,and their attitude...Yeah...Very supporting....However, this camp had taught us patience n living a hard life...We had to ration our stock well till the end of the camp...Definitely it wasnt as easy as expected....Shortage of food became a minor problem, bcuz everyone cooperated....Everyone had just enough of their share...But yeah...Alhamdulillah, as long as we are thankful to god, things will be fine....I was the co-ordinator for Night Amazing Race,while Rafiq was helping....Kinda shocking that the one n only girls group won....And the Expected-to-win guys grp was the last....Hahaha.....The last night,i had to work with Ustaz selamat for the SOLO night walk....MACAM-MACAM KERENAH BUDAK2 SUMER!!!!..haha...once,the guys were too noisy,so i told them there were dogs in front...n there were total silence after that....During the solo walk,some people were so tensed that they were quiet,some ran halfway,some din hear proper instructions....Wakakakaka...afta the last person,i also had to walk alone...kinda scary when u know there's lotsa stories abt the place...Alhamdulillah...evryting was fine...my younger sister told me she saw a black figure standing straight towards the end.....definitely not my ustaz cuz he's waiting at the end point....Im proud of her actualie....Daring....at first,i was rather worried fer her....hehehe...Sape tak sayang adik kan....heeee....So,it all ended well...I guess,it was a gd start fer the youth ambassadors to grow...Insyaallah....

2008-12-04T12:20:00.013+08:00

Its been some time since i wrote abt something....Been quite long actualie...I used to do it often the last time...so yah...But suddenly,i have the urge to express something abt love...Not that watever i write links to my life...Its just a mere expression,a feeling of sumone finding their love,but its never easy....Heartbreaks and other challenges,which are common to people,tends to get in their way....SO here u go,i call it....PUISI CINTAKU.......

Puisi Cintaku.....

Permulaan Cinta bak Permata....

Berkilauan,bersinar-sinar.....

Namun pabila ia pudar dan retak....

Permata yg disangkakan hanyalah sebutir kaca.....

Permulaan Cinta Bagaikan Api bernyala-nyala......

Kegembiraan, senyuman dan tawa mengisi kehidupan......

Namun Ianya mampu membakar diri.......

Pabila ia terpadam suatu hari nanti.....

Adakah cinta itu sementara.....

Bergelora untuk seketika......

Dan menyakiti diri untuk masa yang lama.....

Adakah cinta itu sementara......

Bermesra bila bersama.....

Namun tetap bermasam muka jua akhirnya.......

Apakah itu cinta sebenarnya....

Sentiasa dicari-cari.....

Walaupun tiada pasti ia selamanya.....

Apakah itu cinta sebenarnya.....

Ingin dimiliki.......

Walaupun terpaksa derita dan sengsara.....

Kehidupan ini bagai suatu Pengembaraan....

Pengembaraan tanpa suatu destinasi.....

Sambil mencari-cari,cabaran dan dugaan menjadi rintangan......

Pengajaran pula menjadi sumber kekuatan.....

Cinta yang berputik dengan keikhlasan hati.....

Cinta yang bersemi dengan ketulusan hati.....

Cinta yang berpanjangan hingga ke akhir hayat ini....

Itulah cinta yang ingin dimiliki.....

Cinta bukannya sementara.....

Cinta tidaklah menyeksa.......

Cinta bak perjuangan dalam suatu kehidupan.....

Perjuangan yang penuh halangan.....

Perjuangan bagaikan di medan perang.......

Suatu Perjuangan.......

Hingga nafas yang terakhir....................

2008-12-01T00:53:00.025+08:00

It's already December.....yerpz.....I still remember 2 years back,where it took me sometime to think before trying out sumting new....I still remember the fear,n a lil bit of shame i had due to the decision i made...I wasnt daring enuf back then, to actualie be proud of sumting which i decided on...I prefer to just be thick-skin n just appreciate those whu supported me....i kept it frm most of the people arnd me,other than those whu are close to me.....Well....at least i realie appreciate that most supported me...They're the key strength at that point of time....When more n more people getta noe abt it,it's been always the same questions being asked....Why,How come,people tend to treat it as a joke,something to laugh abt....As time passed, i grew stronger....I knew i needed to be,i needed to face all this...Cuz,rite now,im unlike the majority.....Im into sumting different,n im into sumting which most people dun look up to.....Oh well....im glad to hv lasted those times till now....Alhamdulillah......
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It was my first time on stage...Obviously,some people laughed abt it....back then,my parents dun realie bother...They seem to be quiet..well...i knwo its kinda shocking,xpecially fer my mum...i know it'll take time fer her to accept it....My brother has always been trying to make fun of me since he know abt it...But well,sometimes it do hurts,to the point i cant take it...but i always try to be patient...He's my elder brother afta all...i know i just have to live wif it...my elder sister din noe much,btu she's been always my pillar of strength,sumone i know will support me...my younger sister joined my bro...Other than them,another important people in my life wasnt there,i remembered that performance very well...My great friends were there fer me...yerpz....

Things became mroe n more seriosu fer me.....From just a dancer,to a major role in my school tarian team...Given that trust wif honour for such responsibilities,i knew,things wudnt be easy....I learnt a lot thruout the journey ,seeing things from another point of view...I knew,if ga great teacher n a great choreographer weren't there,i am nothing...well...i was new at that point of new...jsut 6 mnths,but i tried my very best....definitely not forgetting,wif a great assistant behind me,yerpz...Rite now,im looking forward fer SYF 2008...yeah....All the best millennians....

Other than in sch....I joined Cikgu's own grp,Dian Dancers....With the help of cikgu himself,along wif the brothers,i myself realised how much i grew as a dancer....They have been dancing fer quite a long time,n they are proffessional dancers...Their presence during trainings,n having to dance with them on the same stage made me force myself to push myself even more...Cuz i know,i wud look the odd one out if i continue to be whr i was then....With their guidance n advices,its already been 2 years since i've been dancing...n its been almost 1.5 years im wif Dian dancers....i've realised now hw much i've grew,as i look to the old videos n reflect....It's quite a major difference of me now n then....However,i know im still lacking quite much,im still not at sumwhr i shud be realie hapie wif...at least,i shud jsut continue...yerpz...continue to have this learning spirit in dance....

Well...rite now,im looking forward to Dian's own production which im not sure when...yerpz...It's been realie great to be wif dian dancers...n now,im more than hapie that there are more guys now,Yerpz....The spirit continues to burn in me...Yeah....Hehehehe...Well...For the support,i just wanna thank my friends n those whu have been supportive of me till now...yerpz...I realie appreciate it....Ok,im missing Huda....Nurul Huda Bakar!!!!=)....well..other than that,thnx to the seniors,brothers n my cikgu himself fer guiding me to becoming a better dancer....=)..... Other than that,i've nvr ever forgotten abt my past...Its a great memory,n i wish i am still an active sportsman....yerpz...Those secondary school days,yeah!!!!Newae,note to sumone,im glad n appreciate that u tried to support me since then...n now,im hapie enuf u wanna see me perform...the time will sure come...soon....=)....
N yah....rite now,im jsut waiting fer the day where,i will wanna show to my parents n all,when im dancing on that stage...It's been nvr like how they tink....im more than hapie my mum is already acknowledging me in dance..she seems to be fine...yerpz....nth beats her blessing in this world...Yeah....My younger sister always wanna see photos when i perofrm or videos,even my elder sister too.....Alhamdulillah....

Time passed realie fast......Its less than 40 days now....Yerpz....Just a short update on my life....Life is nvr complicated,but its our decision dat makes it realie3 complicated....N due to our decision,we end up being the victims ourself....We hurt ourself mroe than we hurt others....We may be lucky this time,but not everytime...Things may not turn out to be as nice the next time...Watever it is,life is the way it is cuz of ourself....I do believe in fate....but,i believe fate comes onlie afta an effort or a decision made by us....Fate isnt sumting we shud blame on...yerpz.....

I cant believe im standing here....
Been waiting for so many eyars and....
Today I found the QUEEN to reign my heart....
You changed my life so patiently.....
And turn it into something good and real......
I feel jsut like i felt in all my dreams......
There are questions hard to answer....
Cant you see..................

2008-11-22T00:37:00.003+08:00

1. The person who tag you is?- Rafie

2.Your relationship with him/her?- My Bestfriend...yeah...but i've been MIA-ing fer a while...Time to catch up soon yeah....

3.Your 5 impression of him/her?- Kind, Trustworthy, Fun, Crazy, Cool

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for u?- Tolerating my nonsense??Hahaha... Well,he's been rather suppotive,ermmm....Actualie he's been very supportive of me being in malay dance...Well...Appreciate it lots....

5. The most memorable thing he/she said to you?- Ermmmm......

6.If he/she becomes ur lover, things he/she has to improve on?- Hahaha...Im not gay....

7. If she/ he become ur enemy,you will?- Let him get eaten by white tigers??hahaha....

8.(repeat question)- okey go.

9.What is it you wan to tell him/her now?- WE seriously nid lotsa catching up...Sorie fer MIA-ing....Mit u soon!!!!Miss u bro...

10.Your overall impression of him/her is?- Cool.....

11. How do u think ppl ard u will feel ard you?- Ermmm.....not sure...

12. The character you love of urself are?- Crazy n happy go lucky.....

13.On the contrary, the character u hate yourself are?- When im down,my head goes wild.......

14.The most ideal person u wan to be is?- Love being myself...

15.For ppl that care n like u, say something to them.- Realie appreciate ur presence in my life...Love u guys....n I WANNA MIT U GUYS B4 SERVING THE NATION!!!!!

16.Pass this quiz to 8 ppl that u wish to know how dey feel abt u....
*Do if u want to*
1. saffy
2. alya
3. huda
4. diana
5. abg amin
6. taufeeq
7. ayu
8. suhailah

17.If no. 7 and 1 are together, will it be a good thing?- huh??lesbians??hahhaa......

18.what is no. 2 studying abt?- nursing.....

19.when was the last time you had a chat with no.3- Forget oledi....been quite some time...

20.what kind of music band does no.8 like?- i dunnoe....

21.what is 1 doin now?- Working her ass off....WORKAHOLIC!!!....

22.is no. 7 the sexiest person in e world?- Woooo....GO AYU GO!!!!kasi dangdut sikit....

23.does no.1 have any pets?- if she calls sisqa a pet dat is....haha....

24.are no.1. n 5 best friends?- nopez....haha..

25.what color does no. 4 like?- ermmm....brown maybe??

26.where does no. 9 live?- longkang??

27.have u tried developing feelings for no.8?- Wah lao....hahahhaa.....

28.talked abt something for no. 1- Halor giler....more of the nite chats k b4 u miss me soon enuf...hahahaha.....

29.where is no. 2 studying?- nanyang polytechnic....

30.does no.5 n 9 get along well?- ermmmmmmm,,,,,,,,,,,,.....

31.what is e hobby of no. 10?- torture people till they die????another episode of SAW!!!...hahaha...

32.what is the surname of no. 5?- ntah..Sergeant......

33.is no. 4 single?- Nopez.....dah nak kahwin kot....hahaha...

34.will you woo no. 3?- Insyaalllah....hahhaha...nonono......

35.wat abt 7?- Insyaallah....hahahaha....nonono......

36.does no. 6 have any siblings?- i just knew him last year....n i aint close to him...jsut dancemates....so yeah......hahaha....

2008-11-15T16:56:00.004+08:00

Lelaki Baru

By Zaibaktian

Apa khabar engkau disana

Moga kau baik-baik sahaja

Aku ingin engkau tahu

Ku selalu merindukan kamu

Apa khabar orang tuamu

Masihkah lagi marah padaku

Ku harap tidak begitu

Kerna aku tak seperti dulu

Dan aku kini kembali ( dan aku kini kembali )

Sebagai lelaki yang baru

Kini aku pulang kepadamu wahai kasihku

Seperti mana yang ku janjikan waktu dahulu

Kepulangan aku ini....

Tuk menyambung cintaku kembali

Terimalah diriku kembali wahai sayangku

Maafkanlah aku kerna terpaksa meninggalkanmu

Kerna itu yang terbaik....

Kini aku pulang sebagai

Lelaki baru........

Lelaki Baru....Those of you who often hear Ria Chartz might be familiar with this song....If im not wrong,it's been about 8 weeks this song had been telecast over at Ria Chartz...About 4 weeks back,this song came up to number 4...Then,it got up again to number 2,then down to number 4 again...and on week 7, it manage to clinged to the top....yeah....For those who are not familiar with Zaikbaktian, he's a dedicated n passionate singer who first start as an active karaoke singer if im not wrong...Yeah...He was the champion of a competition when he sang Kamelia...Yerpz....He made his debut into the arts scene with his first album last year if im not wrong...His song Taman Cinta was in the Ria Chartz then fer a while....Personally,i also like his song Pesona Rindu...Yerpz...i posted the lyrics n played the song fer a moment in my blog previously....n now,with his new single, written by a member from Merah (im not sure who),he's made known to more n more people...Alhamdulillah.....With great voice n great music, insyaallah, Lelaki Baru may be able to continue being at the top in the Ria Chartz.....Amin.....Newae,Congratz and Go All the Way Abg yan.....yeah!!!!!

Day by day,im feeling better....

A lot better....

Noone wud understand how relieved i am.....:)

Guess i've almost did a mistake....

Yerpz....Alhamdulillah....

Im able to control myself....

The Day's coming realie soon...

Can't wait...Insyaallah it's gonna be fine....

Amin....

2008-11-11T18:12:00.003+08:00

Well...Will update abt latest happenings real soon...But fer now,jsut wanna pour out my feelings...Im realie not in my best of mood currently....Haiz.....I knew this kinda things happen...But i din noe this kinda things wud happen to me...Haiz....Ya Allah ( Oh God ), may he help n guide me through.....Amin....Welll....Something happened recently, yeay....It got me pissed off for a moment...As much as i wanna be angry,i cant...I wanna feel relieved,i cant...Yesterday was bad day fer me....Haiz....There's still so much in my head till this morning,but i leave it all as i knew,Trust....yerpz...Trust is what's needed...But then,as much as i appreciate to know an update abt it, i just cant stop myself from getting more frust...it's getting bad now....Im realie3 not hapie...As much as i have to remain calm due to Trust,there'll certainly be insecurities....I can't help myself,cuz,the situation is realie testing me...it's realie testing my patience.......Im realie losing it....reealll soon.....It's realie hurting me so bad.......Astaghfirulllah....I gotta be strong...I knew, i believe i can do it.....Insyallah.....Amin.........Right now,though that Puspa song is realie nice, i just can't listen to it.....I just hate to listen to it....cuz it will onlie get me pissed off.....It will just make me think of dat incident.....Oh shit.......Haiz.....May Allah bless me with strength,will n patience to face all that's happening....Amin......

2008-10-24T10:42:00.003+08:00

Somehting got me thinking this time round..... I cant help it but at this age of 19, as i grew more mature, i started thinking of my future....It looks as if i've screwed it up...But not yet,not so soon....My life seems to have make sense....The journey from primary,till secondary and now tertiary....I used to wonder n question myself y am i at the current position....But fer now,i understood that i have to very much appreciate the way i am,keep doing my best and keep reflecting....Millennia Instititute....im stuck here,realising all that i've chosen is wrong...My bro's advises seems to make sense...This is what he feared i'll face all along...But i chose to be hot-headed...i chose to be stubborn...And now,i've landed myself in deep shit....Guess my bro understood how i'm feeling rite now....It's so near till the end....Hmmm....Despite all that i have planned,i still gonna and will do my very best....At least,a lot better than what i've done here, In MI........Insyaallah....Amin.....

2008-10-19T11:20:00.002+08:00

I skim thru my old post yesterday, n i decided to just delete evryting.....
There's so much memories.....I laughed to myself a while, but then,though its a lil heartbreaking, nth cud stop me frm deleting evryting....Those memories will just be in my heart....cuz its too precious and valuable to be forgotten......The journey of life till today had been such a meaningful one...Alhamdulillah,despite all the mistakes n wrongdoings dat i've done,im still able to live up till today....Sesungguhnya Tuhan itu Maha Pemurah....Well,ada hikmah di sebalik segala kejadian.....Yesterday,i learnt sumting...or maybe i shud say,early,very early this morning....I sat wif my ustaz wif a few of my friends n we chat...He shared wif us sumting which is realie interesting to us....If a person condemn another person of sumting bad which they do, before he died, the person will do the bad thing which the other person do......It's realie scary....I began to realise lotsa things now....Ermmmmm.......Will update more soon......

How cud i not realise it........
That day when i say,i cudnt figure out anything.......
Now that we've talk,i'm shocked that u've hide too much.......
If i were not to think n open up abt it,guess u might jsut be suffering in silence alone......
But well.....It's jsut weird how things are rite now....Just weird....So weird......

A Fresh Start....A New Beginning......
3 stalks of roses means i love you........
Bt what do i give when i miss you...........

2008-10-19T01:45:00.000+08:00

Pesona Rindu

by Zaibaktian

Masih terbayang wajah ayu

Sekilas pandangan kau pun berlalu

Dalam pesona sanubariku

Ingin ku memiliki kasihmu

Masih terbayang senyuman manja

Menjadi penawar kala ku berduka

Tersusun indah semai di jiwa

Ungkapan cintaku untukmu selamanya

Selangkah, Mengejar bayanganmu

Semakin jauh ku rasakan

Mengapa harus biarku sendirian

Ketika ku kering ketandusan

Rindumu seluas lautan bergelora

Ku lemas dalam api

Cintamu, ku terbakar hangus tetapiku

Kan tetap memiliki cintamu