Friday, January 9, 2009
Well...Finalie, on 6 january 2009,i was enlisted into national service in Civil Defense....yerpz...today is the first day i book out...Just a week,n i already felt a lil difference abt myself...6 weeks mroe to go that is...Proper training will start nxt wk...I noe it wud start as a tough one fer me,cuz i've not been keeping myself fit fer a very long time..hopefully i'll able to keep up,insyaallah...Other than that,the mental stress,mainly from my own self..Too much thinking that built up to it...I guess,im experiencing what any ns guys are facing...Even im not due fer confinement fer 1st 2 weeks,i can already imagine how it's like...Matters of heart had never been simple enough....As much as i want this 6 weeks to end soon,as much as i want to know what will it be by then,i still do fear if its not something i wanted....i still do fear,if im not strong enough to face it...its this fear that seems to be a hindrance..but i do believe,afta this few mnths,its enough to show me some things...its enough t open up my eyes,as i turn more mature in lotsa stuffs....insyaallah....I just hope watever happens,it is fer the best...the very best....Amin....
.I wonder if im able to perform for dian's production.....at least,i do wanna be part of some dance pieces...just hope i got the time to practice...If not,i'll just be a backstage crew...no choice...is this proving to me something.....i aint sure...but the best will always happen...i believe so...insyaallah.......Maybe.....maybe iwjup........maybe........uhgom.........maybe...............iabahiyl.........Questions questions & questions....................Answers will be known soon......................
11:32 PM
A Fresh Start...A New Beginning....
