Monday, December 1, 2008
It's already December.....yerpz.....I still remember 2 years back,where it took me sometime to think before trying out sumting new....I still remember the fear,n a lil bit of shame i had due to the decision i made...I wasnt daring enuf back then, to actualie be proud of sumting which i decided on...I prefer to just be thick-skin n just appreciate those whu supported me....i kept it frm most of the people arnd me,other than those whu are close to me.....Well....at least i realie appreciate that most supported me...They're the key strength at that point of time....When more n more people getta noe abt it,it's been always the same questions being asked....Why,How come,people tend to treat it as a joke,something to laugh abt....As time passed, i grew stronger....I knew i needed to be,i needed to face all this...Cuz,rite now,im unlike the majority.....Im into sumting different,n im into sumting which most people dun look up to.....Oh well....im glad to hv lasted those times till now....Alhamdulillah.......
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It was my first time on stage...Obviously,some people laughed abt it....back then,my parents dun realie bother...They seem to be quiet..well...i knwo its kinda shocking,xpecially fer my mum...i know it'll take time fer her to accept it....My brother has always been trying to make fun of me since he know abt it...But well,sometimes it do hurts,to the point i cant take it...but i always try to be patient...He's my elder brother afta all...i know i just have to live wif it...my elder sister din noe much,btu she's been always my pillar of strength,sumone i know will support me...my younger sister joined my bro...Other than them,another important people in my life wasnt there,i remembered that performance very well...My great friends were there fer me...yerpz....
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Things became mroe n more seriosu fer me.....From just a dancer,to a major role in my school tarian team...Given that trust wif honour for such responsibilities,i knew,things wudnt be easy....I learnt a lot thruout the journey ,seeing things from another point of view...I knew,if ga great teacher n a great choreographer weren't there,i am nothing...well...i was new at that point of new...jsut 6 mnths,but i tried my very best....definitely not forgetting,wif a great assistant behind me,yerpz...Rite now,im looking forward fer SYF 2008...yeah....All the best millennians....
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Other than in sch....I joined Cikgu's own grp,Dian Dancers....With the help of cikgu himself,along wif the brothers,i myself realised how much i grew as a dancer....They have been dancing fer quite a long time,n they are proffessional dancers...Their presence during trainings,n having to dance with them on the same stage made me force myself to push myself even more...Cuz i know,i wud look the odd one out if i continue to be whr i was then....With their guidance n advices,its already been 2 years since i've been dancing...n its been almost 1.5 years im wif Dian dancers....i've realised now hw much i've grew,as i look to the old videos n reflect....It's quite a major difference of me now n then....However,i know im still lacking quite much,im still not at sumwhr i shud be realie hapie wif...at least,i shud jsut continue...yerpz...continue to have this learning spirit in dance....
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Well...rite now,im looking forward to Dian's own production which im not sure when...yerpz...It's been realie great to be wif dian dancers...n now,im more than hapie that there are more guys now,Yerpz....The spirit continues to burn in me...Yeah....Hehehehe...Well...For the support,i just wanna thank my friends n those whu have been supportive of me till now...yerpz...I realie appreciate it....Ok,im missing Huda....Nurul Huda Bakar!!!!=)....well..other than that,thnx to the seniors,brothers n my cikgu himself fer guiding me to becoming a better dancer....=)..... Other than that,i've nvr ever forgotten abt my past...Its a great memory,n i wish i am still an active sportsman....yerpz...Those secondary school days,yeah!!!!Newae,note to sumone,im glad n appreciate that u tried to support me since then...n now,im hapie enuf u wanna see me perform...the time will sure come...soon....=)....
N yah....rite now,im jsut waiting fer the day where,i will wanna show to my parents n all,when im dancing on that stage...It's been nvr like how they tink....im more than hapie my mum is already acknowledging me in dance..she seems to be fine...yerpz....nth beats her blessing in this world...Yeah....My younger sister always wanna see photos when i perofrm or videos,even my elder sister too.....Alhamdulillah....
N yah....rite now,im jsut waiting fer the day where,i will wanna show to my parents n all,when im dancing on that stage...It's been nvr like how they tink....im more than hapie my mum is already acknowledging me in dance..she seems to be fine...yerpz....nth beats her blessing in this world...Yeah....My younger sister always wanna see photos when i perofrm or videos,even my elder sister too.....Alhamdulillah....
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Time passed realie fast......Its less than 40 days now....Yerpz....Just a short update on my life....Life is nvr complicated,but its our decision dat makes it realie3 complicated....N due to our decision,we end up being the victims ourself....We hurt ourself mroe than we hurt others....We may be lucky this time,but not everytime...Things may not turn out to be as nice the next time...Watever it is,life is the way it is cuz of ourself....I do believe in fate....but,i believe fate comes onlie afta an effort or a decision made by us....Fate isnt sumting we shud blame on...yerpz.....
I cant believe im standing here....
Been waiting for so many eyars and....
Today I found the QUEEN to reign my heart....
You changed my life so patiently.....
And turn it into something good and real......
I feel jsut like i felt in all my dreams......
There are questions hard to answer....
Cant you see..................
A Fresh Start...A New Beginning....
